and then there were 4...

I have used the phrase "till we meet again" one too many times lately.. However saturday afternoon i got the call from my dad that my uncle grant (the one in the middle) was in the ICU at IMED in SLC and was not going to make it.. I was in a deep sleep that saturday afternoon, however Jared and i were soon up and packed for the night and headed to the hospital. When we arrived i was met by my aunts and cousins.. Grant was hooked up to every monitor possible and for once in my life i was wishing i did not know so much about the medications he was getting and the severity of the condition i was encountering. I love medicine, but when i am the family member there seeing another family member in the hospital i am NOT a fan. Grant was taken off life support and returned very quickly to be with his parents whom i know were there waiting for him. Grant was such a great man!! The last time i saw him was at draper historic theatre where he was in many plays. The last performance i saw him perform was one of my favorites. Grant was the cowardly Lion in the Wizard Of Oz and he was SPECTACULAR!! i was in tears because i was laughing so hard. This is the first family member for me that i have lost besides my grandparents and it hit me that our lives are so short in the scheme of things. I am so grateful for my Savior, for the Gospel and all that i have been taught. I know this is not the end, its just a goodbye and while i do not like saying over and over again, the phrase is true and brings peace to my heart.. I love you Grant, thank you for the laughs, give grandma and grandpa a hug for me... You were my favorite performer and i am going to miss you.. Till we meet again.. 

Beautiful Day Horrible Night

Yesterday Jared and I joined in celebrating our closest friends joining together for time and all eternity. They were gorgeous and completely happy. I have lots of pictures since they asked me to take the pictures for the wedding day. darby was a beautiful bride and scott was needless to say full of smiles and excitement!! The day was amazing and i was sad when it was over and we had to return home. 
I wish the happiness lasted into the night. Earlier that day we learned tragedy had hit a sweet girl where we live the day before (we met here at these apartments and loved it so we moved into married housing). I was informed a girl was raped and beaten severely ( in midday)  while she was by her apartment by the riverwalk. She is in the ICU at the hospital down the street i hear. I was so sad by the news, but had the thought it will never happen to me. I tend to hear news like this and brush it off, as i do with all i see in the ER. However, i think this hit a little too close to home, literally. When we got home there was a flyer on our door talking about the safety one should have. I was severely disappointed as was Jared by the content of the flyer. The wording seemed to point to the idea this poor girl brought this upon herself. I was angry and hurt that the owners of the complex we live in would insinuate girls would ask for trouble like this. After going to sleep with a long talk of even throughout the day with Jared, i figured i would wake when it was time for me to go to work. Sadly at about midnight i awoke with my heart pounding, nausea, an intense headache and terror streaming through my body. I tossed and turned for a couple of hours till i woke my husband with all my movement. It hit me eventually this event the previous day has scared me to my core. I felt fear of leaving my home. Panic and anxiety quickly took over and the tears started. Why would someone do this? Did they watch the apartments to find a victim? I love to go out and go walking here and by myself usually. Am i in danger? My home security has been rocked, i thought of moving many times last night. Where would i find peace? We want to have a baby soon, could i be safe here with a child? This is Provo, where could i go to be safe if Happy Valley no longer felt safe to me? This event made me sick mentally, emotionally, and physically. For those that live here where we do, please be safe. For the girl who has had her world turned, i pray for you, i pray for a recovery mentally, emotionally and physically. In no way think this was your fault. As for me, i am home, in my home, trying to find the safety i once had. 

Special Olympics & complete Perfection

I was given the wonderful opportunity to attend the special Olympics for the state a few weeks ago. The closest i can describe what i felt there is Heaven must have been close because i could not stop smiling. It was complete joy and happiness. The people there were perfection, happy for being where they were and happy to cheer others on. We could learn a lot from them. When i was taking pictures of the runners i was holding back tears. The competition to win was not what was important. Everyone was excited to run/walk and excited to finish. To try and get out on the track and field is what was important. When they crossed the finish line, most turned around immediately and cheered whoever was running with them. I took lots of pictures, i hope you enjoy them, there is no fancy editing. How can i edit complete perfection, as this is what these people were.  I do hope one day to be medical personnel at the Special Olympics, but this opportunity was AMAZING!! thanks tiffany for inviting me to go with you!!

the official torch for the opening ceremony

I loved the enthusiasm everyone had!

it was pure smiles all day

if you did not want to run, throw things or jump, no need to worry there was a stage where you could dance your day away!!

My beautiful friend tiff with her sister who has gone to the world special olympics and brought home the gold!!

no worry of age, you just run!!

she was amazing!!

Weekend in the ER

No i was not a patient in the ER. I am fine and so is the family.. 
I was working in the ER doing my capstone for school. I am nearing the
 end of this journey. I am down to 9 weeks left. My days consists of tests
 and more tests to see how prepared we are to take the NCLEX . So 
far so good with my scores but i am still scared out of my mind as
 rumor has it the test got harder this year. This last weekend i spent
 4 days at Alta View ER working as a RN. Can i tell you i was so nervous!!
 i prayed that i would seem competent, and have some sort of idea in 
what i was doing. You would think with my years of working in the ER 
as an EMT i would be fine, but the RN aspect is so different. The first 
day i was there we had a trauma, needless to say i can not give details
 due to privacy laws, but i can tell you it got me realizing why I LOVE 
the ER. To think on my feet and know that this patients life is in my 
hands and the many other nurses, EMT's and MD's there reminded me 
why i love the ER so much. I got the desire to hit the books harder and 
to be at the best of my skills and knowledge. Now i know that there is 
lots i do not know,  but i was given many compliments on how i was 
in the trauma and the nurses were impressed i could still think on my
 feet and remember a lot of what i had learned in past experience and my amazing critical care class. My dream job would be to remain in the 
ER. i will admit i was a little sketchy on if i wanted to remain in the
 ER when i am done with school. But the feelings i felt when i left my 
shifts this weekend was something i have missed. I love being there to 
help people when they are in some of the lows in their life. I have a goal
 to make a patient smile even just for a minute when i am in the room.
 I know people come in the ER with major health problems and minor. 
No matter what they are there for i know they are coming trusting us
 with their lives or their loved ones lives. There is no room for judgement
 from me. I am there to help them and hope the situation will improve. 
Needless to say i was not out enjoying the sunshine this weekend, i got 
some emotional sunshine. Here is to hoping i can continue after i 
graduate in the ER and work where i know i have a great love for
 what i do. 

hiding from the boys

On the 23rd it was a bittersweet day. It was our first anniversary, Malia birthday party and the day all the girls in my family snuck out to go to the cemetary to take grandma jensen some flowers. I am not sure if all the girls have ever snuck off like this and it was tons of fun, even if it was only for an hour. I of course had my camera so enjoy the pictures from our adventure.. sorry i am not in the pics, i am the one taking them!!

Sweetest Girls in the World

Five years ago a beautiful girl came to this world.. Malia has been a blessing since she was born. As Aaron's only daughter she is full of spunk, sass, and all around GIRLINESS!! Malia was given this amazing gift to share a birthday with my Grandma Jensen. I think these two planned on her coming on May 24th.. They are alike in many ways i am told.. Happy birthday to my sassy lil Malia, and happy birthday to my sweet grandma.. I love you grandma jensen, till we meet again..

hmmm i love this girl!!

more on this in the next post, but Malia wanted to leave this for grandma jensen when we went to visit her..

One Year To Our Eternity

A year ago today Jared and i knelt across the altar and answered one of the most powerful, most important questions in our lives. To say yes to this question was something i know i had dreamed of since i was a little girl.. To have friends and family there to share this moment with us was such a blessing. In fact i was told we had 92 people in the sealing room with us.. This year has been so much fun and i am so grateful for my amazing husband who always keeps me laughing and going strong. I am excited to spend LOTS of years with Jared. As we were talking about what we wanted to do for anniversary we decided dinner at the roof would be a great tradition, but the most important thing we could do would be to go do sealings at the temple. To do work for those on the other side of the veil was an amazing experience. To make it better we went to the draper temple and did sealings in the same room we were sealed in. It was a great experience and i look forward to doing this every year. I love you Jared!!

Publish Post