Friday, September 9, 2011

Answered Prayers

               As many of you already know, we are expecting a baby boy in January 2012. I know our battle with infertility was not long compared to many, however, in this time i have gained so much respect for women who go through this trial. I am grateful for modern medicine that helped us to get to this point in life.
              As with all blessings there are some trials along the way. I did miscarry last year and so finding out i was pregnant again was exciting and horrifying all in the same breath. I did not want to go through the pain of losing another baby. I had some rough spots early on with this pregnancy and was placed on bed rest for 3 weeks, when i was 9 weeks along. I did not tell anyone i was expecting as i did not want to explain things if something tragic did happen. I know there have been a lot of prayers on our behalf, trust me i have felt them. This little guy is a result of much fasting and prayer and i am so grateful for every kick and poke he feels to offer me.  To say we are excited is an understatement. I do not think there are words to describe how we feel about our little boy. 
      people have been telling me to update our blog with the big news, but a part of me is scared, paranoid and not ready to tell the world.. This world is scary, and i hope i can keep this little guy safe from some of the harshness that is out there.. I also have this fear of telling everyone and then having tragedy strike.. Am i crazy for thinking so? probably, but i am pregnant so i get the right to act a little crazy!!
   I would post a belly pic, but that means i would need to have a picture taken and well i don't think that is going to happen anytime soon, lol...  and have i mentioned, january needs to hurry up and get HERE!!!